FANTASY LIFE.
Monday, April 30, 2007
how can anybody kw how i feel rite nw? sighh.. i cant do anything abt it... sometimes i juz feel im stupid sigh... y today lesson is like so emo... e blogger, e blogger like me? zzz i can understand how it feels i juz simply cant speak out my thoughts... i understand everything i understand how he/she thinks... hais... my heart... painn..zzZ
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today got inventory sighhh so tired... can i dun wk?
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yesterday hu got cry leh... everybody hahhahaa! sighh.. sians dun feel like blogging nw.
-------------------final fantasy--------------- ; {9:59 AM}
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Saturday, April 28, 2007
today is sat yea =x so does every1 kws la... i suddenly miss my class again... finally this few days back i show temper to 1 o lvl student. idiot him. chao gay. so wad if am an ITE student...
but sometimes i ask myself whether i like this class or not... cause it actually makes me damn sad...
we do nth in VB lesson, got all e code fm my friend and study alone... while e other waiting fer me to teach them.. nvm la i juz dun feel angry or wad. is juz like science lesson... teach hell lot feel so happy. we do 1 ppt explain everything in there... suddenly smth goes wrong, my close friend over there suddenly change to another person sia... she was not angry of e mates in ppt cause she didnt sae anything... soooooo unfair. i was so glad she concern abt my finger thingy i was so SHOCK sia but actually tryingg to make her laugh so i bluff her hahahah!... i gib all my slides to my mates i left nth but my mouth LOLS. hope they wun get a C la..
juz got an e mail fm captain, its a gal SOMEMORE omg... must be damn gd in runnin? i wonder how many runner there run damn fast...
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sians outside quarrelin again abt my laptop n sch fees? sighhh my life is gettin shucks nw... when a parent divorce they juz simply care themself. they will support u unless they got extra income or maybe nx time u old le u will support them...
fer me, so bendan they kw i wun earn much nx time or maybe support myself oso got prob le.. c my father side got family, my mother side got family. left me alone at my auntie hse. my mum oso wun cum back c me/ new year oso no hong bao fm her..i kw she nv support me or care abt me le. but my auntie sae she still got cal back n ask abt my thing? I DUN THINK SO. got 2 small kid to care le still ned 2 care abt e big 1 here? this big de oso can support himself le NED TO CARE DE MEH? altot a divorce family got lots of freedom but it still cant compare with a complete family... so im admire those family out there.. or maybe i can sae got a parent beside them. not like me not even a single parent beside me, got prob oso ma fan... juz a simple cdc/ccc form oso cant complete.. i always cant do anythng but...
-------------------final fantasy--------------- ; {10:13 AM}
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Thursday, April 26, 2007
i feel soooo hurt when ppl actually bluff me blah blah blah. really. esp my closer friends. it happens to be 2 of my close friends in class. maybe im wrong maybe they juz dun wan 2 talk so much.. sighh nw in science class seriously i dun like htis class although i got top fer science in my sec sch hahaha but is NT =.="
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feeling so down nw cant get any better. old friends, new friends... maybe is juz my imagination only...
-------------------final fantasy--------------- ; {10:02 AM}
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this few days nv blog cause my cousin keep using e com is not i have
nth to blog.. =x
dunno y sometime feel being leftout hais... nwadays lots of thing hurt
me alot. thx there is a friend over there to help me with it =) and thx
fer her 'gratitude' thingy lols. actually i got show bit temper liao ok
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fer e IG/cca i only join track n field leh... den e person nv mail me
=.=" so when is e ... training.. actually wanna join more but i have no
idea laaa... feel sooo lonely again =x
i did order laptop skin in sch btw, still dun hab reply. jialat la this
sch =x but compare to outside its $10 cheaper WOW, same design n brand
lo damn nice i luv it~
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sometimes i juz wonder. do i like this class? haha cause after a sem we
are gone... n nw i stll dunno hu is fm IT except fer tat little gal =x
but she goin 2 change course liao leh, btw i wonder wads happenin fm
tat miss cal. i was slpin like a pig =x LOLS so shiok lo heee slp so
longgg.
ya today i did e animation fer the powerpoint wah damn nice la they c
the first page was like. WAH lols =) i take 1r+ to fin ok. i so noob
take so long my member oso suan me sia. but i think they luv me alot =x
alot of ppl ned my help in class haha im so willing to help them but
they oso teach me lots when cum to theory bahbahbah like tml we having
science jialat laa... tml we stress together n ATTITUDE TOGETHER!!!
-------------------final fantasy--------------- ; {3:18 AM}
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Sunday, April 22, 2007
after slpin in jie hse lols.. feel everything is much better.. lotsa prob share with her. sighh i keep thinkin too much...
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keep breaking down this week, but nw i kw.. everything is over le shld put it behind... but there is some kind of ermmm.. piece of glasses inside my heart. i miss bugis... there is lots of memories there.. i juz couldnt bear it and i juz simply cant concentrate in class.. im feelin so down... so wasted... maybe i shld try attach to cwp c hows e format n e person there.. i guess.. its time to put it down n let go...
YEAH tml IE im goin to join T&F =x i wannabe captain again AGAIN im goin crazy rite nw lols. i shall stop wkin on weekdays its too tiring fer me... i dun wanna fail. =)
btw yesterday when i wk i got a customer cal chester. he so young lo im DA chester he is XIAO chester LOLS =x i look more shuai he look more cutee so together we r e most shuai n cute HAHAHA jk.. this is gonna be crazy. MEET u GUYS tml i miss my mates but not e lesson =x
-------------------final fantasy--------------- ; {9:17 PM}
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today damn sian laaa wan go out b ecum nv go out. zzzZ put aeroplane again...
today actually goin jie de hse den go ite hq submit my scholarship deeee.. but... nv open lo lols. hais... so sians... so stress talk lots of thinggs.. lols..
damn sian lo.. nw chatting in jie hse =x
-------------------final fantasy--------------- ; {2:57 PM}
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Saturday, April 21, 2007
yeah everyday i got smth to blog de muwahahha...
after wk i was like damn tired lo den still 1 v 1 with william haha i win =) and still got albin 1 v 1 guard til cfm lose den sae sucks den dun wan play =.= nvm la juzz a game. lose den lose lo.
ok ard 3am den slp til 7am.. i was like damn tired =/ nvm still have 2 go to sch.. wanna meet kar how bt he will be damn late lo. so askin lijie whether after sch got go anywhere ma. so we meet at cwp den walk to sch. he saying he goin 2 pon e class alot of ppl didnt come lo or maybe some of them? sighh i go 7-11 buy snack n drink norhs den i drop e spring roll OOPS =x i was like holdin e laptop lo no hand liao. dunno y they gib a doreamon magnet so i juz contribute to e class n stick on e board HAHA..
sighh die la now i still wondering whether did i do my RJ or not cham laaa argh so damn sad.my group... hais juz as i expected. sians. i forgot all my vb code sians manz i shld have bring e book.i keep finding resourses in e net lo. only manange to create a simple calculator.
my group was like doin nth lo. i was so worried abt e submission to cher. i feel damn down lo. thou i forgot e code but i stil understand alot lo. i did ans alot fer tat class =) hope can get a grade A but my RJ really lousy la sigh always write 2 lines nia.
btw han xi really sooo smart lo. pei fuuu laa.. sighh ok our powerpoint slides is steal fm marcus de lols. den nv read anyhow boom like faster read den explain y like this n tat.heres COMES e GUI. no 1 understand it lols. hope can get an advantage over there.
after sch went 2 library to get some resourses. actually actually horx i wan lend flash de coding or thingy but... i cant find.. nvm forget it i oso wun have so much time to read.after tat go hm lo. actually i think is depend on my mood whether i can talk alot or wad. when i damn tired i dun like 2 talk? maybe? or maybe when i sad oso? hmm nv really go n find out y.
i went into e mrt platform liao. but den karhow n marcus ask me wan meet den go cwp ma.. den go out lo.. nvm la got concession so is like wun waste any 4 lols.
was so tired lo nvm entertain them bax. we went to mac eat abit n sign up dunno wad thing leh aiya bo chap la. ah ma told me i was there n nv saw her =.= i really dunno she was there =/ nvm..=DD
go hm slp til dunno how long actually i heard my auntie quarrel with my ah ma lo with e stupid laptop $. 2k den kp here n there... i was slpin they disturb me til i wake up but i still choose to run away hope i can get scholarship (dunno how much) den return them bax. sighh i run away... away...
and i think i have 2 start mentionin abt this i long time nv blog this le.. haha..yea is long time nv meet dear le lols =x this sunday MAYBE i free bax can try to meet her.
tml oso goin to meet HER le.. can some1 tell me wad shld i do? shld i do my job only or with my character in it.
life seems to be hard fer me more n more prob cumin out.. i juz wan u all to be straight forward juz sae wads on ur mind. i oso have my own thinkin. kinda stress no 1 can guild me well in class.. they dun really understand how i feeeel. wad they learn be4 they juz being selfish n keep those freakin notes fer themself. so they have more things to sae den shoot ppl. but nvm la i nv hate any1 actually i find tat my class is better den my friends de lo heard fm wad they sae. so my mates is so friendly n good la. but after 1 sem change le will miss them lots de =x
ya lastly if this is my RJ i think i can get an A A A+ =x
actually juz nw went down to eat n found out smth... smth.. a letter fm ngee ann. it says of cos reject la.. aiya.. im not sad anymore thou did crired fer tat lols. but im really happy with my mates rite nw..
-------------------final fantasy--------------- ; {1:06 AM}
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Friday, April 20, 2007
each n everyday in getting more n more stress.. suddenly no life again im so tired. today lesson is all abt science.. im serious dunno anything abt blood i nv learn be4. only kw blood is red =x lols...
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this time i really must THANK han xi fer teachin me alot n encourage me =DD n other teammate got teach me abit i pull them down this time. hais. nw den i kw jun ming is a GUY omg. cham laa i keep treating him as a gal leh... sighh i damn pai seh... each n everydya is stressin me i worry i cant pass my first year.. sighh and again i dunno wad i wan nw... i juz simple talk so much rubbish to my wkin mates to make myself feel more happier n better. keep smiling fm day to nite. my jaw goin 2 drop le.
so late le still bloggin. but really cant help it... im tired.. this feel day i eat damn less. 1stly i dun hab mood sia really i cant even finish my meal, 2ndly shortage of $, 3rd no time lo always chiong my wk den go wk or go run after run cfm mei you wei kou de...
arghhh startin to break downn...
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i scare i cant continue to be so GENTLE haha.. i try my best liao but everyday seems to be more worst... nvm juz try...
-------------------final fantasy--------------- ; {12:49 AM}
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Wednesday, April 18, 2007
lols after i start sch i keep bloggin maybe my life is not black n white anymore? sighh but today i wasnt so happy...
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karhow early mornin msg me cal me meet him ard 750. ok lo i tot i cannot make it sia cause i blur blur when i saw tat msg, cause juz wake up nia ma ard 715 liddat. den he wait fer me outside e sch lo. den we go canteen 2?(the 1 with air-con de) den c him eat lols i buy ice cafe latte? i spell correct ma? i sell coffee de oso dunno how 2 spell jialat lols. btw its $2.40 omg not nice la still make me stomachache. sighhh
hmmm rch class? i sit wrong place again? lols. hmmm ehhh ya keep doin those qns lo.. den got smth happen. when i was doin my ppt some1 use crush paper ball throw at me.. the feeling is like... all of a sudden i was sooo shock den my blood vessel shoot up sia. but suddenly a image or a kind of feeling remind me to cool down. so ok lo. i was dunno wad i sae when she throw tat thing on me i kw is not purposely de la n keep saying sry.
i say nvm nvm.. i mean it but i dunno wad kind of expression to give or wad shld i say on tat situation so i choose to run n keep quiet...
actually today wanna sae bye to her but pai seh lo... cause... nvm hahaha...
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i dunno since when i started change alot of things happen on me tat usually wun happen.. my hp lost. nw i juz came back fm run my wallet de $ lost ALOT zzzz i regret i withdraw so much lo argh.. i feel sooo freaking down now. this is a small thing la for u all. but i was so lost at tat time almost break down zzz. but my salary dunno can last until when tat amount of $ can last me a week sia include goin out gai gai.. so stress nw im soooo freaking stress..
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ahh rch sch le.. heee meet karhow having breakfast... den go back class my group quite sian la fer today... hais i still like e first day... hmmm ok lar v hard lo today de wk.. den after sch i saw edith izzit liddat spell ar or 1 day kana kill by her =.= juz beside nia den BYE... got my hp number but nv msg SO FUNNY lo den how i kw her number =.= nvm... we take 911 bus den nv go back interchange OMG. im rushin to wk zzz.
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rch pasta NV LATE sia lols heng. saw da jie jie =DD so happy tot buddy cuming but nv.. heard fm kuku han she sick til jialat... i tot today i will try 2 be v open n not last time de me anymore le =x nvm im v tired after everything i neda rest...
-------------------final fantasy--------------- ; {12:30 AM}
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Tuesday, April 17, 2007
16/4
today is my happiest day... hahaha...
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rch cwp le.. den kar how & marcus late aiya i still e most punctual de bax =x too hao lian le =x ok... so i go alone to RP lo 1st day so lonely la hais...
rch class rm le early by 15min saw 2 student n lijie my former group de friend he speaks alot haha... den have some chat with him bax..den after tat
facilitator cum le wow not bad laa she oso quite friendly =x her name oso v unique hmmm call hmmm no la 'melanie'? i forgotten le.. today i group with kai,
ling ling, edith, ju ming? ya they quite friendly sia i really like them la hahahhaa! nice friend i still on e mode of changing? she sae i gentle sia e adift
wah lao damn pai seh lo (aiya dunno y all e gal seems to treat me like an angel starting but after tat i becum a devil liao) =.=, but told her when times
pass i will be v attitude de la so im changing lo... hmmm e facilitator v funny la always kana suan by me lols... she juz like friends to us more den teacher lo =DD
oh break fer 1hr my group not so steady only me n edith go eat lo sian... i wanna a group so hmmm will have those kind of close feelin. den after eating we went back to class wa they do fin liao lo.. zzz den present they dunno sia lolss.. den i so pai seh cover my face heng got 1 brilliant gal la help us settle everything... sighh... after tat we practical smth den make a warship boat ar lols(we didnt gib a name so e brilliant gal came out a name in a sudden den i
nv hear properly oso.) sighh tml dunno hu will be e same group as me nvm as long as im happy can le. tml after sch still ned to wk sighh with her.. im trying
to 4give n 4get... btw how 2 give when pply nv did anything wrong hahaa.. nvm i juz try to be more open lo 4get everything talk more.
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she let me realise tat (hao xin shi hui you hao bao de.) she oso let me kw tat being a gd person oso v important or my life almost end up v miserable.. tats
y i wanna change fer her, fer e friendship i offered nw is gone.. maybe everything ends n have a good start bax juz like today... 4get n start anew. n thx
=DD
17/4
cant slp... so wake up n blogg.. nw is 1am smth.. ltr 7am still ned 2 wake up.. hmmm.. juz nw i got abit sot.. ard 11+ go outside n slp haha inside e rm so
hot lo so hot...hmmm is like.. sweating all ard liao, ALMOST la... i hate sweat ard when i slp or wad lo lols... so uncomfortable... i wan 2 faster go sch
leh i wan 2 make more friends hahahaa =x hmmm... to be continue...
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Saturday, April 14, 2007
i try to change everything liao. when i start changing alot of freaking things happen... i tot hao xin you hao bao? zzzZ this is wad i get this few weeks. nvm juz counted as covering my evil deeds ive done last time. countless.
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carry my stupid laptop for almost e whole day so damn freaking heavy my hand so tired i feel so tired... i believe same goes to my heart. haha. ive end everything. counted as game over. play new game with new things everything is new. but e format will be sama sama abit la hahas. 3 more days goin to start sch le. hope i can change it faster.
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im a leader. ive been a leader but ive nv been a gd leader... n gt c a leader so shy be4? haha cham la... wad to do hatred hatred full of hatred.. sighh i think i needd to go join cs/needa councilor?
rubbish feel like talking to myself again haha..
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today went to rp configure my notebook. den meet my friends goin cmbp to defer my army thingy den shit i rch til bishan den rem i 4gt to take my defer letter fm RP. omfg. den go buy things at sim lim. umbrella lend them kana rain feel bit sickk dunno y im became liddat maybe im trying to change but they still wan me pay cab fare sia zzz nvm lo ren must ren must CHANGE. i really must use to IT. den it can be natural... trying hard nw...
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Wednesday, April 11, 2007
recently i rem my dream/illusion quite long ago suddenly cum true ytd. 1 of it is abt laptop den by fingerprint, contact to e same person in my dream zzz. quite blur rite? nvm simply i got my dream cum true but tat isnt wad i wanted. still got many other things i can predict dao haha... kw smth goin to happen but dunno when, soo i cant prevent it... maybe shld think less bad things bax..
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my permenant schedule 3days.. ard 200+ a mth. think cant survive. n smth scary happen seriously, nwadays talk with pris she kw wad im thinkin, i was so freaking shock n didnt reply. ned to keep a distance. ltr dajiejie is wkin haha... trying to be quiet rite nw i oso dun like myself being sooooooooo noisy... but in rp must talk more more MORE! Rubbish Poly...
-------------------final fantasy--------------- ; {5:27 PM}
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got this pic fm ah yue. =xx she saw this i sure die de.. hmmm here got many chio bus but only got 1 shuai gee la rite =x
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ok i got my laptop liao talk lai hua long.
meet kar how n marcus @ cwp mrt control station. 8:15am meet becum 8:30 liao lo...
but karhow rch earlier he siao de 6+ wake up le i 715 den wake up.faster rush down lo my alarm so soft sia oso cant hear any shit cause i fall aslp while listenin to my ipod =.=
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ok on e way there i got into my class wow. got few chio bu la =.= nvm talk with those o lvl student so stress lo. first time in my life i speak sooooooooooo longgggggggg de english not use to it. but i find it not bad la. but e o lvl student look at me on tat way likeee KAN BU QI WO... sigh... juz brought a optical mouse n mouse pad... kinda happy lo got my own com...
tml got games but dun wan go la cause i got wk ma sian... =(
n seriously i dun like ppl shout at me. i juz got shouted on da phone so i JUZ publish n cum n EDIT my post again. makes me feel SO FREAKING SAD.
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Tuesday, April 10, 2007
no $ = die? zzzZ no 1 pay fer my laptop by tml i ned 2 get it zzz. nw dunno they all run til where le.
cheater liar. Zzz
recenlty lost my hp.. only my jie lend my hp =)) i nv sae she faster lend me le hais owe her once. no maybe lots. lots of thingss.
tho nv meet fer a long time or even chat. i feel tat she more concernin me hahas xD
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how to settle my laptop zzzz. feeling so down.. im super stress nw i hate them. haisss they left me. nw hu left with me?
but sometimes i think, when i grow up how 2 settle my family matter(parent) looks like i think too much been a good son? i wun. even my jie's mother take care more den my parent. tho their family more poor den me but they help each other out even e surrounding friends i even felt she can be better den my mum. i start to feel my throat damn pain, my heart...
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today im pm happen smth stupid really stupid. first time so angry of tat idiot customer.
feel soo tired zzzZ i dunno this can last how long...
-------------------final fantasy--------------- ; {5:01 AM}
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Sunday, April 08, 2007
yea sooo wads e secret. hee...
my 100th POST =x
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juz feel like blogging lo so late le... recently brought some crapp again =.=
-wang chong yang
-final fantasy XII
-T-shirt(angels)
sighh spend too much this mth.. keep draw money but police bo catch me its legal OK =x
my laptop haben settle all zhao liao like not their business sians.
dunno y nwadays attention to me like v important.. sian.. i tot im living alone without any attention is needed. but seems like there are quite a few of ppl came in to my world without my passport =x
maybe u think is rubbish but seriously those ppl accompany me makes me feel like so much closer den friends but. suddenly they leave u alone at e corner... zzzZ
i wonder e appearance of a person isss sooo important. somehow they can juz forget u whether u r best friend of not? they juz seems to kana attracted by e appearance.. maybe i shld learn how 2 control too... juz pity them n myself haha!
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im a person which cannot be trusted?
yea i feel tat sometimes those ppl kana backstab juz feel tat they v ke lian haha!
here comes e depression again =x
all e think tat i hope 4 is quite simple but juz simply dun follow zzZ i hate my family lots. i feel tat im always so extra whether is with my family or friends or clzmate wadeva. i nt important in their life. there is no needs on me..
i cant feel any better...
so pls keep quiet.
-------------------final fantasy--------------- ; {3:18 AM}
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Wednesday, April 04, 2007
actually got a photo with everybody de i dun hav it.. but cannot c my faceee zzz.
oh shuckss.. my hp de cam so blurr nw... zzzz.. ow having a headache rite nw.... starting ard 6-7 soooo bored sia. but after tat after 7 haha those games quite funny la =x i juz gotta $20 ntuc voucher sian la.. wad if i got plasma tvvv =((( sighh...
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e men speaking up there damn shuai =// soo funny lols. cal qui yue 2 take video of azlin =x cause theres smth damn funny up there ok i try 2 make it as a secret haha...
n those guys drinking out there eeee. so er xinn... like siao ta bo liddat... hazel saw me alone haha! pull me up to e dance floor so pai seh o.o i dunno how 2 dance mai. stil pull, i still mai =x
ya bao shan got e best service o.O
-------------------final fantasy--------------- ; {9:02 AM}
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Tuesday, April 03, 2007
xiao hao cook fer me... spicy curry fried rice. it was my idea leh not bad huh =x nice really spicy oso.. rated ---> ***** hehe =x
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gotta weird body leg dunno y like grow pimple liddat but actually i kw y liddat le =x
today buddy cum out do runner liddat. talk quite alot den dondon gimme black face while i juz take a glance when i turn my head =/ maybe talk too much le sigh..
today after cal me go use staple pok my wound den e water cum out eeeee. so erxin sighh..
dunno y this buddy weird weird de. after buy my thingy go back pasta totally nv talk nvm kinda tired wanna rest nw. nope is K&M time =DD
yeah btw alot of ppl in pasta keep 'yeah' here n there thx to our OM oso la =x haha. if he saw this im dead =x
tml d&d hope i can be happy bax...
iwannabe happy but i cant...
-------------------final fantasy--------------- ; {1:29 AM}
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Sunday, April 01, 2007
today juz cut my hair...
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i bring e delicious snack over outlet no 1 try it no 1 appreciate oso... sigh.. wtf wtf wtf nobody understand how i feel i still walk back hm n take cause forogtten zzzz.
not even a thanks when they dun wan =.= nvm... no steamboat. worst. e whole day every1 black face. i oso wk til no mood.. meii cum visit me.. but oso nv turn out feelin better cause really soooo sad.
e more i wk i feel more stress feel more sad. e higher i climb... when i fall haha means dead.
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recently playing knights n merchant damn fun.. 1998 de game graphic chi ke lan. but e system i love it la...
cant share any secrets recently... make new friends best friends i will try by best 2gether with them i feel so left out nw...
-------------------final fantasy--------------- ; {3:19 AM}
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got this pic fm ah yue. =xx she saw this i sure die de.. hmmm here got many chio bus but only got 1 shuai gee la rite =x
actually got a photo with everybody de i dun hav it.. but cannot c my faceee zzz.
today juz cut my hair...