i feel more lonelier ever since i enter NS. in my running, computer and working is with me in my poly life. i felt i can nv ever been more alone in poly times. but i can nv imagine this place is worse. without running i left with working and computer, ever since i enter to NS i stop working which left with my computer. now i felt more like a 宅男, but is not totally a bad thing. at leaast i understand so much right things to do den before.
last time i have so much hatred, im sorry for not understanding that time. things doesnt goes as the way we want and it always oppose us, so i trying to accept things first den i believe 1 day i will get accepted.
cant imagine i still have 14mths to go. and is a boring one. i wish my life is interesting like those days..